An Education in Letters
by Jane Lin
Last night I told Rosemary
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what she'd wanted to know—mimed the bear
tasting honey from a hive.
She'd said to ask Sevanna
who had described only A to me, her arms
snapping shut like an alligator snout.
But B, rubbery, buttery, bendable B
bounced against Rosemary's dying body.
Reversal from strawberry ice cream,
from walking the two steps
from potty seat to bed, making me promise
to let her pay for the round wood
toothpicks and Chapstick so good
for hospital lips. My hand clumsy on hers.
My words too, like epistles to the dead. And so
the grieving begins for the 97-year-old
kindergarten teacher, widowed
and childless. In the morning,
a sterile room. Standing
I wait for a nurse to acknowledge me,
tell me what I already see
because I can't leave like a nobody
no one notified. No letter. Nothing.